*melts*

Be serenaded..

Gavin Degraw - Belief

There is so much, so much that I yearn for. My tree diagram is currently a web, but it gets interesting though; as desire meets fulfillment. Belief, makes things real. Makes things feel, feel alright.

I feel a sense of deja vu right there. I remember feeling this way, perhaps forced into this circumstance; I see the similarities. It pushes me, this feeling.. hence the journey of fulfilling it, provides a sense of contentment at the very end. Sigh, I love life.

I guess if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. Life could you be a little softer to me? Life could you be more gentle to me?

Somewhere at the back of my head, there is so much time, so little to do.

I had everything all planned out. Somehow, deep down.. I know things would not have worked out. Being me, I followed my heart, once again.

Because no matter how detail you plan everything, your life would never go the way you want it to be. All you can do, is hope for things to turn out in your favor. There will always be alternatives, new paths for you to go through, of which inevitably creates an opportunity beautifully presented before you.

Gonna blog again, with a different perspective this time round. Don't expect nonsense like, what I ate for dinner.

Augustana's Twenty Years.

Uni of Curtin Or Uni of South Australia?

We The Kings - Secret Valentine

A smile from Heaven. =)

As I gaze upon emptiness, I stuff the earphones into my ears and lay down. Picturing Beaches, Picturing Oceans, Picturing Mountains. Capturing Serenity. So real, seconds became minutes. Minutes became hours.






An escape.

Only God sees the Heart.

Matthew 7:16 - You will know them by their fruit. Grapes aren't gathered from thorns, or figs from thistles.

Enlightenment.

I've gained.

Looking back, I personally have to say that I truly appreciate my past, what I did, whom I did it with, and all that's in that aspect.

I gotta say I'm glad I was brought up the way im brought up.

I'm glad I was introduced to the world of mamak stalls. Mamak stalls, i'm speaking dirty as hell mamak stalls, not the ones you see with air cond, or nice looking furnitures. Simply sitting down, with a cup of 'teh tarik' and chatting is enjoyable. Did it almost every single day. Still am.

I'm glad I went to the CyberCafe eversince I was twelve. CounterStrike brought me joy like nothing else, it still does occassionally. Having to go to school and just chat throughout the whole day, without listening to whatsoever lessons that was being taught was bliss. The bullshit, the laughters, the company. It all made me a happy person. Really happy.

I'm glad I did not give a shit about people around me. As to what they do, I meant. Those that studied their hearts out, hats down to you. I enjoyed my years.

I'm glad I never did my homework, skipped school or was never on time for school. I get bored easily. And I hate cracking my head up for something I do not enjoy(though, I don't have a choice sometimes). I mean that's me, but thankfully with that being apart of me; I am who i am today. I am doing what i am doing today. And, it feels great.

I'm glad that FuaChyeJun and I argued with the principal, as if he owed us something. Ha Ha Ha. The one, where we lined six chairs together and sleep, the minute we entered class. Or where, we planned to go to school at 10. Or the one where we stole chicken from the canteen, not because we couldn't afford; but because we wanted to. Because the MakCik was stuck up. Or the three of us having daily strolls around school, for 'sight seeing'.

I've gained so much. So much, it's not expressable. It all made me, shaped how i am today. And discover what I actually enjoy in Life, (People and Surprises) I love the fact that I do not have to live my life as if it was a routine. By routine, I don't mean waking up - brushing teeth. You know where I'm heading. I'm speaking, waking up with something on my mind. Something exhilarating. Of course, there were moments of frustrations, depression, and every synonymous word for sadness. But God and the people around me, closes that part. Life is Good.

It's crazy.

What is success?
Is it being DOCTOR Muthusamy?
You have to be a Doctor, engineer and all that shit to show you have "bigger" brains.

Hi aunty, I cook for a living. I'm useless.

WHATTHEHELL?

Next in line, you're a misfit to others?
Please, do us all a favor by slapping yourself. Better yet, dip some shit on some curry for dinner. It ain't a free world anymore, it's a competition rather.

BULLSHIT.


Day in day out, we hear people, doing amazing things. Here we are, chasing some stupid ambition that separates us from reality.



We try and try, yet we end up with the same old shit - "failure". Hardly worth an ovation from a 3 year old down syndrome kid, yet we pat ourselves on the back. Our abilities somewhat mocks our intended will. Face the fact, we all want to be great at the things we do. We want the world to know that we are fucking talented. But, not everyone makes the cut.. So it's okay to fail once in a while, after all we are but humans. Sometimes, quitting is an option. Ignorance is key. You have won one battle.

2009.

I'll be there. But this time, I'm for the prize.
No, the objective shall not differ.
Motivation is what gets me started, Habit is what keeps me going.
Persistence shall be there.
I'll be on top.

~regrets make you old, and bitterness poisons the people around you.

~ Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by. But sometimes, the moment stuns as it happens. And we know in this instance, it's more than a series of image. And we know that every part of it, will live on forever.

And the battle against boredom continues.

WoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooHhhhhhhhh.

Happy New Years Everyone =))

Business Statistics, is such a pain. the probability of finding this dog is 1/3 this cat, so where's the horse? I'm like WHATTTT?!! Enough lah, have mercy on me :(:(

Jon Mclaughlin's beautiful disaster is too bloody addictive, I sing it in class. And the person beside me hits me ha ha ha.

O yeah, Dawn Yang the blogger is real fineee. www.xanga.com/clapbangkiss. Despite her surgeries, at least it worked for her :)

Foundation is about to end and fellow coursemates are gonna depart, to further tertiary studies. Though it's been real great having you guys as company. As we shared our laughters, and joy. I really thank all of you. But it's not goodbye, okay?

KarynLee, Jonathan Khoo, Low Pak Kah, Stephanie Lim, Ken, all fellow 3.3's and 3.1's and overall, the whole foundation. Thank you for your company. God Bless.